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Alan - Forum Creator's Thread
« on: September 13, 2017, 03:00:50 AM »
Hey OCDNET community, I'm Alan, the forum creator, and I figured it was time to create my own thread (and keep it updated). As the forum admin I feel I haven't contributed as much as I should have so I'm here to fix that, share my life, and get to know you guys better.
First I just wanted to say hi and thank you all for being the most supportive and knowledgeable group out there. Without this forum, without you guys to talk to, I don't know where I'd be in my OCD journey.

So, some of you may not know me, or why I started OCD.net, (too lazy to type the whole thing).
I started this forum about 5 years ago when I thought the rules and restrictions on other health boards were too draconian. I wanted an unfiltered, devoted site to OCD injuries so I went ahead and created it. But that was the easy part. And Besides maintain and pay for the forum I really haven't done much. The community has contributed way more than I ever have and really made this forum the informative, supportive place it has become.

As for my personal injury, I don't even know where my original thread is, but my ocd is on my left ankle, two holes, medium size. I had microfracture and it didn't go that well. Ankle still feels quite weak. That was almost 10 years ago and I just kinda get by in life. I didn't run or jump for all those years after the microfracture because my ankle just couldn't handle it. Thank god I could walk but if it was long distances and if i was carrying something heavy my ankle got really iffy and sore.

Dealing with the injury was more than I could handle. I gave up. I honestly stopped doing research for years. It was this forum's members who really put in a lot of the hard work (again, thank you all for your contributions, I love you).
So where I am now is that I feel more surgeries are too risky and plus I don't have the money for them anyways. So that's another reason to be lazy about research.

A few months ago, I joined a gym that had a basketball court and I started shooting around. Basketball was my old passion and though I couldn't play, just shooting the ball didn't hurt my ankle that bad. SO i shot around for 3 months, and then one day at a different gym, there were people playing and they asked if i wanted to play. Normally I'd decline and tell them I was injured, but I don't know what came over me to say yes. I hadn't played in like.. 9 years. I think I was just a bit depressed or lost in my life and I was like F*** it, I want to play, let's just try and see what happens.

So I can't play like I used to obviously, but I found that by moving around carefully and not jumping or running around like a madman I could get by without being the worst player on the court. A few days later, I played again. And it felt so freaking amazing. I felt so alive. I did mess up my ankle a bit but it was so worth it.

And since then, i have been playing a few times a week. My ankle hurts afterwards but i take a rest for a few days and then I can't help but play again.

I don't really know where i'm going with this, just wanted to share that maybe i feel a little bit of the pain and struggle you guys go through to have to cut off your passions in life. I know i have said to some ppl to give up on their athletic dreams. But maybe there's a compromise. This is our life goddamnit, you know? We have to do the things that make us feel alive and free.

So, that's my update. I will try to post more about myself and what I'm going through and I look forward to interacting more with you guys.

Thanks for reading.
-Alan


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Re: Alan - Forum Creator's Thread
« Reply #1 on: September 16, 2017, 09:51:36 PM »
So I played basketball two days in a row, then went on a hike today.
Ankle is very tender and sore.
I probably can't play ball anymore, ankle just keeps getting more and more unstable the more I subject it to jumping and running around

Surprisingly, hiking isn't terrible for my ankle, as long as I don't do it too much. However, the risk of spraining my ankle is incredibly high when hiking over unstable, uneven rocks, so there is that large risk.

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Re: Alan - Forum Creator's Thread
« Reply #2 on: September 22, 2017, 03:56:55 PM »
I did 8 hours of hiking yesterday and my ankle is completely destroyed today. If my ankle can recover it will have been worth it but I can't do that kind of hiking again.

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Re: Alan - Forum Creator's Thread
« Reply #3 on: October 07, 2017, 09:18:39 PM »
Alan, Iím sorry to hear all the trouble youíre going through but congrats on actually making it back on to the court. That must have been exhilarating. I have completely eliminated sports from my life but yesterday I went and just shot basketballs without jumping and it was surprisingly fun! Your post kind of motivated me to do it. And then every time I air balled I did 10 push-ups haha. Maybe you could get back into athletic things like kayaking, rock climbing, etc. that are good substitutions but not a strain on your ankle.

If you are still in pain it may really be worth getting back to the surgeon or getting a second opinion to try and fix this. My cartilage has held up 3 years post op and now Iím on PT for tendonitis / nerve impingement due to walking weirdly since surgery.

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« Reply #4 on: October 08, 2017, 01:07:34 AM »
I played ball again, a few days after the last hike. Played about 30 minutes , not that hard. Ankle had slight pain/soreness afterwards but felt OK, didn't push it too hard. If i went longer it would have been worse pain.


So far I think I am in a steady pattern. I can play every 3-4 days for not longer than 30 minutes and ankle should hold up (until it doesn't)